last words....

On June 19th, I packed myself up as I was staying overnight at the house and then catching a morning flight back to BWI, and the airport was more easily assessable from there.  I booked a roundtrip as the plan was that I would come home, and settle things here.  I had to make new arrangements for Triscuit's care, show up at the office at least a couple of time, and then return on Monday the 30th and stay in the hospice with Tommy through his birthday.  We had set the room up so that I could work from there during the day so staying for a couple of weeks would not be an issue.  

Tommy had decided he would see how things went staying overnight without company as a trial run - it was the only night he did because Bryan went and camped out while I was gone.  

And so, that night as I left, I hugged my son, kissed him, and....

I remember I asked if he wanted me to sing his lullaby before I left, and he just chuckled and shook his head.  I remember that I told him that it was okay if he found his door when I wasn't there, and then I said good night and that I loved him. 

I don't remember what the last thing he said to me.  

I have his last comment in the family gaming channel:

I have the last thing he said in the general family chat:

And from a couple days earlier, I have the last thing that he wrote specifically to me:

But I don't remember what he said to me as I left that night.  

And I really wish I could.