Day 129

Today is the 3rd day of the 19th week, the 9th day of the 5th month, the 129th day of 2023, and:

• Alphabet Magnet Day
• Childhood Depression Awareness Day
• Europe Day
• Home Front Heroes Day - a nice touch, remembering those who picked up the slack here at home so the warriors could fight in another land
• Hurray for Buttons Day
• Lag B'omer - sounds an awful lot like the holiday yesterday, but this is the 33rd day of the Omer count and like so many holidays, it started at sundown last night.   It celebrates the life of Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai, who was the first to publicly teach the Kabbalah.
• Lost Sock Memorial Day - we've all had it happen, and no one can explain WHY or where the lost socks go
• National Butterscotch Brownie Day
• National Moscato Day
• National Sleepover Day
• National Teacher Day
• Tear the Tags Off the Mattress Day

Quote of the day:
"Who do you be when you don't want to be who they want you to be?"

~ Nad, a live performer in Second Life in an original song

The one thing a parent never wants to hear is "I'm bored".

The immediate response is: find something to do.  If you can't find something to do, I can find something for you to do.  And the kid turns away, disgusted at the adult lack of understanding and sympathy for the utter failure of the world to amuse, involve, and interest them.  My youngest granddaughter has perfected a very melodramatic deep sigh and a total body flop on the nearest item of furniture to express her complete and utter disdain for the failure to immediately produce viable alternatives.

Adults have those moments too, but we're not always as honest in admitting it.

Opening a closet and sighing "but I have nothing to wear" when there are literally racks of clothing in front of you.  

Standing in front of the open refrigerator door and saying "there is nothing here to eat" when obviously the fridge and the freezer all have food in there.  

Looking at the clock constantly while at work thinking "this has been a long day"

Basically we are saying we are bored.  For whatever the reason, what we are doing, eating, wearing is just not resonating with us at that particular moment and we don't know exactly why we feel that way, but we definitely feel it.  We have drifted into disengagement with our everyday life, and aren't exactly sure why, but we don't like that feeling of restless discontent.  We start a project and put it down.  We start to watch a TV show and click it off.  We pick up a book and only read halfway thru.  We just want that rush of feeling fully involved and nothing less will do - something like that "new car smell" to juice things up a bit.

Something....  different.

EEK!  This is when I start to worry that I am beginning to wish for "interesting things" and I'm not at all sure I'm ready for that!  As a kid I would impulsively cut my hair into bangs for example.  As an adult I might splurge on some large purchase that I really don't need [ah the VR sets are singing my song these days, but I need a whole new system to run them and....].  Beats me why this unspent energy never gets channeled into to "let me dive into the closet and really clean it out" or something like that, but it never does.  We all have those restless days when nothing seems to satisfy us.  

I just wish I handled them better than I do.